i realise i cant be left alone with nothing to do, i'll jus start thinking about some stuff.
went to town yesterday with Zijuan and Stella, we had lunch with their husbands. realise this is the 2nd time they go out with me like this after i faced a similar heartbreak about 2 years ago. and i was blindly following behind 2 happily married couples for lunch, feels kind of miserable don't u think? not saying i don like it, my friends r trying to spend time with me..
i feel that history is repeating itself so funny..
so we girls went singing, i came to realise i've known so many chinese songs. i've never even once, went to look and read the lyrics. i jus plainly know how the melody goes and how the song is sung.
and there were these few songs, wrote exactly what happen to me during the breakup, reasons and how am i going to manage the heartbreak.
very weird. i wonder how those song composers wrote these lyrics, i've been to FIR concert last july, the member that plays keyboard actually compose many famous songs, he said he wrote those songs from imagination, but mostly from his own life experience.
this song isnt wrote by him, but its clearly writing my experience out.
im totally experiencing those words in bold.
i look back at the short memories, i jus can't stop thinking about it, things i did, letters i wrote, words i've said. so what if im trying to find details of the cause of what had happened?
i know its not going to change anything, but we girls jus CANNOT HELP IT.
my best friends wrote me a card and cheer me up, they mention it pain them a little to see what im gg thru again, and they wrote “记忆有限，所以他会淘汰坏的” (another song lyrics again). and they hope they this is the last time they see me cry.