Recently my life took a turn and I didn't really wish to explain much about the previous break up, someone asked me if I will be doing a blog post about it, in case you don't know, my reply was "If I were to do a post about it, I'm afraid one blog post is not enough" there were more negativity than the latter.
I was reading an article about how human beings are being judgemental and how we judge by what we see and the belittle understandings towards situations only makes things more complicated. Anyways, I have moved on and I learnt that being happy can occur thru very simple things in life, my friends say that I'm much happier now (obviously) rather than drowning in tears & heartbreaks like how I use to be. I use to shield the negativity of my previous relationship with photos that create a fake facade of a "perfect" relationship. Then when things really happen, I regret doing all these. I was broken.
After the breakup I chose to shut down because I have serious trust issues, honestly speaking, I can be the most paranoid gf ever, because my ex has proved all my sixth sense right. I feel afraid of knowing new people and sorry but I feel all guys are the same, period.
All these time, I questioned my identity and character, I asked myself again and again what the hell was wrong with me? I kept making wrong choices and I chose to stick to someone who doesn't cherish me at all.
Finally fate took a turn and little that I know that my current love B, was this guy that cracked me up at an event job 11 years ago. ERMAIGAWD what?! 11 years?
Sometimes fate is really magical, after so long, i kept thinking why do we have to wait so long to find each other? I finally understand that timing is really important too. We grew to become mature, to love with a bigger heart and we learn to appreciate and respect each other.
My boyfriend not only show me that trust & respect is easily earned by action. He also taught me many knowledges about business and life. I grew to become a better person because he inspires me. He places me first and he loves his family, he holds on to his loved ones dearly. He is protective of me and cares ALOT to my emotions & needs. He doesn't make me feel inferior and he makes me feel well taken care of.
Although whatever happened to me in the past impacted me a lot emotionally, I'm really elated now that I found the one for me. I'm lucky and we still can't believe we're together after 11 years of friendship. Thanks B for healing me, respecting me, taking care of me, giving me advices and thank you for giving me a place in your heart *smooches*